365/ week 27
There are times where I feel like a champ at my list of things I challenged myself now 27-weeks ago, and there are patches of time where I feel like I'm utterly failing at this thing.
I made this list before we found out my husband would be working out of state, and I would be left to play "single mom" while he was away. And 6-months deep into this all while trying to keep up with language lessons, piano lessons, working on my book and art work etc just at times has become the impossible all while being dance/swim mom, working full-time, and keeping my house from looking like it should be on the TLC show Hoarders.
But I recently read an article (I know SHOCK, I got to have a 30-min bubble bath reading a magazine!) where the author explained how every birthday she makes a list of things she wants to do. But it isn't the law of the land, but more of a beacon to remind her of what she wants in life when she feels derailed. And let's be honest, everyone get's derailed a few times a years, it's just a fact.
Right now, I am derailed. I thought I would have been moved to Portland, Oregon by now. I thought that I would be neck deep in editing my already finished book, and almost fluent in Italian while playing the piano with ease and grace. Oh how wrong I was.
This past weekend, we took a one night camping trip, and just the smell of the camp fire, and hearing the crickets and bullfrogs brought a sense of peace and calm. I've been spending so much time in my studio and sketchbook, praying...HOPING that this funk I've been stuck in will pass.
So today, I put on the dress I wore when I got to meet Brett Dennen for my birthday last year...once again praying and hoping that it still holds all the magical Brett Dennen powers to bring into this Monday. I remembered to renew my kids books from the library (versus the dreaded fines because I forget to do this often.) I've drank two bottles of water and only one cup of coffee. I also got an e-mail informing me one of my photo prints from my trip back home to Germany last year was accepted for a show at the Black Box in Portland.
So, even though this post is 4-days late, it's a Monday and I've got a to-do list that I could swim laps in, I refuse to let my Brett Dennen dress good vibes only, hey I'm a damn artist/photographer for realsies, bad ass mama, kicking butt taken names fail me now.
So for now...here's some photos of my weekend, and soon I'll have the most magical BC engagement photoshoot photos to share with you.