First and foremost...Happy Summer Solstice. I cannot explain how happy I am to know and have summer officially here. Since summer came to North Idaho, we've had warm afternoons with tapered and fluffy white clouds dancing in the blue sky and warm breezes. It's almost like the long, dark, cold winter didn't even happen.
Last week I promised you I was going to self propel myself out of the gloomy rut that I've been in and I can tell you, though I still feel swamped and still trying to find direction that I am not 10ft stuck in a rut. I started off the week with getting accepted in a show in Portland for a photo I took while I was traveling in Germany last year, which just set the tone for the week of "I will do this, I will not give up."
So Tuesday, I picked up 100? bricks which were donated to me for an upcoming installation I'll be doing, I purchased new sheet music for that piano of mine, spent several late nights in the studio, made my first sale on Etsy, and cheered that daughter of mine on at T-Ball.
Somehow the universe knew that I have been struggling with being a single mom, an employee, and an artist who just is dying to travel. A friend of mine which I met in school sent me an adorable IG account of a mom/designer/traveler, my mom and I confirmed our trip to BC next week where I've got some photoshoots set up, and I was accepted into three art shows in the next four-months.
And if thats not solidification enough, yesterday while I was at work, a local artist came in to instal a new piece of artwork to the ever growing
gallery that has consumed my office. My boss asked if I would interview her for 5-minutes so I could write about it on the blog and add her to our summer article. That 5-minute interview blossomed into a 30-minute conversation and us swapping contact information.
Being an artist is hard. Being a mom is hard. Life is hard.
And the struggle is always, "Am I on the right road?" "How will this affect my kids?" "Am I being too selfish?" or even "am I giving too much and forgetting myself?". This is a dangerous cycle of self doubt and it isn't healthy. The only thing that any of us can do is to just keep walking. Somehow I think getting in the rut, holding still, is far more lethal then making mistakes.
So instead of sitting still, I have a weekend of being swamped ahead of me. Of copious amounts of coffee and BBQ chips as I hustle to get as much work done as possible before I head even further up North.
On that note, if you've been up around Vancouver BC what are some spots/places to eat/coffee shops that I cannot miss out on? Let me know...this will be my first time in that area.
Have a wonderful first summer weekend, and please, just don't stop moving. Somehow, it will work out. Just keep moving.
With Grace and Guts,